Running and the Black Dog

Many thanks to Jo L for sharing this account of her experiences running with dogs, both metaphorical and literal.

My relationship with running stems entirely from mental health – but not my own. (My own has been sketchy at times, but more on that later.) Some of you will know that Mark’s brother lost his life to depression in 2013 and in a supportive moment, knowing running meant a lot to Mark, I rather uncharacteristically suggested we run the Cardiff half marathon 1 year later, in memory of Dan. Until that point, I’d done a few runs with the Harriers, but always failed to grasp what the point of it was. Where were we running to?

At first, training felt awful: the first 30 minutes of every run made me want to stage a sit-in, in protest at my own stupidity. Only such a personal cause would have kept me training for that first half marathon. Who would voluntarily do such an awful task, I thought? Why wasn’t I at home, watching Netflix? But I plodded away, and started increasing my distances. And then something odd happened. I realised that, after 4 miles, I felt okay. And after every run, I felt marvellous: all those endorphins flooding my brain, and an increased chocolate quota to boot. It started to make sense. The Cardiff half marathon was even fun: fellow runners were supportive, there were jelly babies at mile 11, I raised a load of money for the Samaritans, and I felt elated when I finished. I high-fived every kid with their hand out that day.

But still, I was a fair weather runner. I trained every year for Cardiff, then I gave up over winter. This didn’t make a lot of sense, because, I, too have suffered from the Black Dog since 1996. Despite progress through medication and therapy, January to March were the worst months for me, with some days spent in bed, unable to face the world.

And then something changed. In Spring 2017, I started running with my very own black dog, a Labrador called Pip. I found a few Harriers to run with on Friday mornings. I joined a Canicross group. I came off my medication. I vowed to do every cross country race I could over winter to keep me fit. And I just kept running. Not very far, and not very fast – but this past year is the first year I have kept running all year. It is also the first winter that I have not experienced a depressive episode since 1996.

I am not saying that running is a silver bullet (sorry, guys). I’ve had a lot of therapy over the years; I’ve changed my life to suit me better. But running has definitely been a factor in my improved mental health over the past year, and in coming off medication. Why? Here’s my pitch:

  • You don’t need to look good. Let’s face it – no one looks good in lycra. Too depressed to do your hair or put make-up on? No problem. You’ll look like the Joker if you put mascara on before a rainy run, anyway.
  • It’s preventative. Most of us can see when depression is curling its fingers round the door frame. When this happens, I look for a local run, put on my shoes, and go. It’s like bashing those fingers with a hammer. In fact, running is best used as a preventative and management measure, because it can feel impossible to leave the house once depression has settled in.
  • It connects you to people. A key factor in better mental health is connecting to others. I didn’t know anyone when I moved to Godalming. I’ve made some lovely friends in the Waverley Harriers: we have coffee together, organise runs, and sometimes they even dogsit Pip when I’m stuck (thanks Elaine).
  • It gets rid of adrenaline and cortisol. Your lizard brain can’t tell the difference between a sabre–toothed tiger and that annoying email. Depression is often comorbid with anxiety. If you’re flooded with stress, a quick trot will bring you back down from the ceiling.
  • It gives you a sense of achievement (even if you’re not achieving all that much). I remember how I felt the first time I ran 8 miles. I thought I was Wonder Woman! It wasn’t fast, it wasn’t pretty, but it is a great feeling to achieve something that is not linked to work, academia, how you look, or what anyone else thinks of you. Something measured only by what you see as an achievement.
  • It’s a supportive community. I love the fact that even super speedy Harriers give me ‘kudos’ on Strava for a 3 mile trot with Pip. If you want to get faster, there are hill and track sessions, and any number of people willing to help. But it’s okay to just be running.
  • It’s pretty cheap. You can have a fancy watch and snazzy gear, but you don’t need it. Just some trainers, shorts and a top. (And a Waverley Harriers membership is a bargain at under £30 per year…)
  • You can have more cake, chocolate or wine without getting fat. Say no more.

So if you’re grappling with your Black Dog, or another challenge, consider running (actual dog not mandatory).

An actual dog

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  1. Well written Jo, & thankyou for your open honesty- & congrats on coming off the meds! I find walking briskly (ish) has the same benefits for me, I try for half an hr every day except when temps are high 30s, 44 this w/e ugh. And now I have a bike so try for an hour on that – lots of cycle paths around here, & hills!
    Much love to you& Mark.

    Fiona Fuhrman.

  2. Great article Jo – I started running as a preventative measure and it has really done the trick. My body also fights against it for the first 3/4 miles and then finally gives in, glad it’s not just me!

  3. Lovely article, Joey. Makes much sense. I think it’s golf for my Black Dog. But our brown dog, Fitz, also helps.



    Oops must include cat Henry helping too – or he will get Black Dog, or worse, brown dog. [ Fitz still terrified of him.]

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